WHAT THE FUCK??!!

so you'll never guess what i heard from my friend tiffany
well after i wrote the phone conversation tiffany read it and said to me "rachel said she needs to get a new best friend and boyfriend if she doesn't she'll get bullied" I mean what the fuck??!! i don't fucking care about the boyfriend thing but the best friend thing ooh of course I care about that!! she promised me ... that she'll be my best friend forever and never find another .... what the hell was all that shit about rachel?? does a promise mean anything to you....
I promise u that i wouldn't ..... and nothings gonna break that promise ..... but right now .... damn I don't know its getting harder and harder to hold on

but I promised you I wouldn't find another .... I promise I wouldn't let go of you ... and Im gonna keep that promise even if you don't want me to be your best friend because of all these drama and the distance between us .....

but to me none of these things matter ... because I know I'll always be your best friend .... though maybe you won't be mine .... and as for the distance .... I'll always see you in my dreams .... my dreams of you are the closest thing I've got to seeing you .... but I don't care I'll keep on dreaming, holding on, and loving you ...no matter what happens .....

so I want you to know .... that I can't control what you do or say ...

I'll be here waiting for you to make your decision
i'll love you always .... forever and ever and a day ....

FUCK I WROTE HEAPS OF STUFF AND MY FUCKING COMP STUFFED UP!!!!

far out!! now i gotta write it again!!!

well rachel finally called me yeah!~! ive been waiting for ages now!!!!

well we talked about alot of things what she, what I did lol you know the usual lol
she told me that she made heaps of friends and there was this one boy who wanted to learn english but he doesnt know any. Anywayz he said to her shoot oop that's pretty freaken stupid considering it was shut up XD what an asshole!! (no offence rachel)

anyway I told her that i was going to start high school next week haha she was shocked!!! but I dont want to go to high school well ... no jus yet .... well have to face it lol wish me luck!~!

she told me that she went to sleepover at her friend house. Her mum and herself went over she didn't tell me what happened over but im sure it was fun :D

after that I told her what I've been doing over. Well I've just been making new penpals, when I told her this she just automatically got jealous lol (I dnt mind she always gets jealous when i talk about my other friends lol ) well I have 2 korean ones, 2 indonesian ones and 1 english one haha I told her about them and yea lol and then she told me that she had a penpal but it was a bad experience for her maybe thats why she didnt like them ;)

well then after that she told me that there was this other girl from her grade 4 class and she wanted to be best friends with her ..... when it was rachel's first day she got in trouble but this girl told the teacher to go easy on her because it was her first day and she doesnt know anything about the rules soo yea ...... SO the teacher cut her some slack and said she wasnt in trouble. Then she told me that once she got really angry and she hit the girl and the teacher found out and again rachel was going to get in trouble but the girl said it was her fault and of course the teacher let them of the hook. After this she covered for rachel for more than 10 times ...... maybe that's why she wanted her to be her best friend .......

after this she asked me how i felt ..... well I jus told her that I wished I could have done more better before she left .... but I felt more than that ..... I know I should have told her but I'm not like that!! I don't go around telling everyone that im sad or angry instead I'd rather write a song or listen to songs or just think about it ..... well i felt sad angry and jealous!!!

but I wouldnt say these things to her .... all the time we talk i never tell her how sad i am or anything because I just want our friendship to be the best friendship anyone could ever have ... anyone could ever want ..... but so far its probably the crappiest friendship she ever had ....
I dont even see why she picked me of all people ..... she deserves more than me ....

Well I'm going now ....
bye~bye~
love yas<3<3

p.s Rachel I hope you realise how much I love you .... and I never want to lose you to anyone ..... I'll never let go of you .....
I love you

when are you going to call?

well here i am waiting for rachel to call

its been ages since she called !!! she moved to korea not long ago in december before christmas.

We use to call each other everyday but now since she moved she can only call me like once or twice a week DAMN!! i would call her but i don't have her number lol

well you can't always get want you want right??

Like I Always Do

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGkQBL-y9Q8

You gave me a reason, told me that I'll always be yours

You are my desire, my heart is so on fire for you

I can't stop loving you, loving you oh no

Cause I don't wanna end up in your reaview, wanna be someone you can turn to

Baby I never wanna lose you, no there's nothing I won't do

So I'll watch you like a movie, I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story if it takes me all night

Keep you like a secret, I'll tell you like a joke

It's true, it's true

That I'll love you like I always do

Love you like I always do, love you like, like, like

You are so amazing, you stepped in and saved my life

Everytime we are together, my time is forever

My world is always yours

I don't wanna end up in your rearview, wanna be someone you can turn to

Baby I never wanna lose you, no theres nothing I won't do

So I'll watch you like a movie, I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story if it takes me all night long

keep you like a secret, I'll tell you like a joke

It's true, it's true

That I'll love you like I always do

Baby I'll never leave no, I'll never leave you

I will watch you like a movie, I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story if it takes me all night long

Keep you like a secret, I'll tell you like a joke

It's true, It's true

That I'll love you like I always do

I said I'm gonna love you, yeah, yeah ooh

I'm gonna love you, I said I'm gonna love you

Ooh, Ooh, Ooh yeah

I'm a love you like I always do, yeah, yeah I'm gonna love you

I'll Love You Like I Always Do

Things i love about you!!!

I love it when we're talking and every so often you would pause me, say my name and say "I Love You"

I love it when you call my name when im not listening to a word you say and then you would say "sharlene?" I would say "yes?" you would say "not even listening to me!" and then i would say "ooh rachel im sorry .... what were you saying?" and you would tell me what you were saying.

I love it when you wrap your arm around me, but when I do it to you, you would take my arm away and replace it with yours and then say "that's much better"

I love it when I'm sleeping on your left side but you tell me everytime to sleep on your right, but when i say no you would turn and face the other way and not face me until i go to your right. When im on your right and facing away from you, you would say "HMPH!" and turn the other way but in the end i would end up facing you.

I love it when you grab my phone type something on it and hand it back for me to read it because saying it would be too embarassing.

I love it when I'm sleeping and you would stroke my cheek and hair while i sleep.

I love it when we're sleeping and you would grab all the blanket so I wouldn't have any, but I fight back for it.

I love it when you just start to sing randomly to yourself, not caring if anyone heard you.

I love it when you grab my hand when your hand is cold.

I love it when your sleepy and would lay your head on my shoulder and just fall asleep.

I love it when we're at the movies and I would have a jumper but you wouldn't have one so you would say "Oi!! I'm cold give me the jumper!!"

I love it when you say "No touching no hugging" and avoid my touch but then i would say "Please!! just one hug!!" and start whinning, after a while you give in and give me a hug :)

I love it when you entwine your hand with mine.

I love it when you say "I Love You" after our chat on the phone and hang up, but after a few seconds you would call back and say "AND WHAT DO YOU SAY??!!" I would laugh and say "I love you too"

I love it when I say "I love you" and then you would say " I Love You More Than You Love Me"

I love it when you squeeze my cheeks and say "so cute!!"

I love it when you grab my paster and exchange it with yours so, your using mine and I'm using yours.

I love it when you step on my foot really hard in class and i would step on yours.

I love it when you say hi to me first everytime i get to class.

I love it when you giggle in front of me and i would say "what?" you would just shake your head and say "nothing"

I love it when you get jealous about other people because they're playing with me, but you know you'll always be the one I do everything with.

I love it when you say "If your not going to eat anything then im not going to eat anything"

I love it when you tell me to do that thing i do with my hand and my lips, when i make my hand into a hole and put it on my lips and puff up my cheeks, and you would call me cute.

I love it when you just go crazy around me.

I love it when even though I've made you upset, disappointed or sad ..... you would always forgive me in the end ..... no matter what terrible thing i did to you to make you feel like this ..... you would always love me even if im the most hated person in the universe ......

And the thing i love about you the most is how much you love me so much and how much you'll always hold on to me no matter what I do ...... that's why im proud to call you my best friend forever and ever and a day <3<3

I love you so much rachel .....

My first

Well this is my first blog ......
i dnt really know wat to write but heres my first one lol
i made it because i wanted to write all these thoughts and feelings I've been having and i couldn't keep it all in my head so I had to make one
well .... I'll be posting more soon
Latahz!!!
love yas!!!