FUCK I WROTE HEAPS OF STUFF AND MY FUCKING COMP STUFFED UP!!!!

far out!! now i gotta write it again!!!

well rachel finally called me yeah!~! ive been waiting for ages now!!!!

well we talked about alot of things what she, what I did lol you know the usual lol
she told me that she made heaps of friends and there was this one boy who wanted to learn english but he doesnt know any. Anywayz he said to her shoot oop that's pretty freaken stupid considering it was shut up XD what an asshole!! (no offence rachel)

anyway I told her that i was going to start high school next week haha she was shocked!!! but I dont want to go to high school well ... no jus yet .... well have to face it lol wish me luck!~!

she told me that she went to sleepover at her friend house. Her mum and herself went over she didn't tell me what happened over but im sure it was fun :D

after that I told her what I've been doing over. Well I've just been making new penpals, when I told her this she just automatically got jealous lol (I dnt mind she always gets jealous when i talk about my other friends lol ) well I have 2 korean ones, 2 indonesian ones and 1 english one haha I told her about them and yea lol and then she told me that she had a penpal but it was a bad experience for her maybe thats why she didnt like them ;)

well then after that she told me that there was this other girl from her grade 4 class and she wanted to be best friends with her ..... when it was rachel's first day she got in trouble but this girl told the teacher to go easy on her because it was her first day and she doesnt know anything about the rules soo yea ...... SO the teacher cut her some slack and said she wasnt in trouble. Then she told me that once she got really angry and she hit the girl and the teacher found out and again rachel was going to get in trouble but the girl said it was her fault and of course the teacher let them of the hook. After this she covered for rachel for more than 10 times ...... maybe that's why she wanted her to be her best friend .......

after this she asked me how i felt ..... well I jus told her that I wished I could have done more better before she left .... but I felt more than that ..... I know I should have told her but I'm not like that!! I don't go around telling everyone that im sad or angry instead I'd rather write a song or listen to songs or just think about it ..... well i felt sad angry and jealous!!!

but I wouldnt say these things to her .... all the time we talk i never tell her how sad i am or anything because I just want our friendship to be the best friendship anyone could ever have ... anyone could ever want ..... but so far its probably the crappiest friendship she ever had ....
I dont even see why she picked me of all people ..... she deserves more than me ....

Well I'm going now ....
bye~bye~
love yas<3<3

p.s Rachel I hope you realise how much I love you .... and I never want to lose you to anyone ..... I'll never let go of you .....
I love you